tortured

Yeah, I’ve been gone for so long
But did you miss me home all by yourself?
Could you wait to kiss me
Or did you find somebody else?
When you got lonely
Was I always on your mind?
Still the one and only?

cold hearted

haha
last night i had another dream with my tooth falling out. it’s happened before. it was an over sized front tooth more on the right side of my mouth (not the bunny teef). according to what i’ve read (a lot of it sounds bogus) it is an over exaggeration of anxiety, a sense of fear of what’s bound to happen, and an overall troubling time transitioning into adulthood. what the hell? i’m nineteen years young and here i’m questioning whether this means i’ve hit puberty or not. this is all cornier than beef in a can.
maybe that’s why it makes so much sense

….
suck it up.

“Somebody once told me that I’m already in hell
Freedoms a state a mind
And just the heart of me’s in hell
I free my slave mind so a part of me’s in hell
And when it’s hard to breathe, a part of me inhale
So pardon me you gotta’ try hard to be yourself
‘Cause you can’t get to heaven being anybody else
And I was raised by a reverend yet the lessons didn’t help
I had to get ‘em for myself
I was told hell is hot, But had to feel it for myself
So I left home, as a young child smiling as I stepped on
Facing the world but naked, without my weapon
I lost my smile and in exchange, I put a vest on
Now that my premature stress is gone
I got problems to face as a man
I was told you either stand or you fall
As long as you know when you walk you holdin’ hands with a god
That alone can turn the dark to a walk in the park
I only talk from my heart so open yours when you listening
Every man has his own heaven the difference is the way that he envision it”

-blu on the world is…

above the clouds

last night i had a dream that i was hanging out with blu and his producer from johnson&jonson crew. we were kicking it in the kitchen and grubbing on some food that i don’t remember. it was really weird. i remember feeling too cool to ask for his autograph but i know i should’ve done it.

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disrupted in the morning by another bounced check from the roommate. insufficient funds. will delay june’s rent. also, disrupted from another day of inconsiderate roommate rabbit humping.

nothing new

my savior

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later that day
job attempt fail no. 2 (hired twice, failed twice)
kobe’s 35 pts and 10 assists take LA to another NBA finals
5 dollar whole chicken from safeway
24 oz. olde english
rekindled with yahoo pool
about to finish off survivor