one step closer

i feel like i am inches away from fully being anally raped by this system

a direct product of budget cuts and the same problem i’ve been dealing with for 17 years

i never knew it would bite me in the ass this fast, this hard.

black mamba

mission: impossible

yesterday:

- woke up to get ready for downtown
- followed a craigslist post for an italian restaurant job opening; headed to north beach w/ a resume
- home for eggs, chicken, and rice
- got a call for second interview for guess
- watched a canadian on tv make the most successful counterfeit money
- headed to fcc with jr and paul: spoke with folks about workshops (boxing, hip hop, graffiti) and gained an overall perspective of progressive community work in the heart of sf
- had an orgasmic time watching star trek
- marinee’s thai food
- spinach dip, costco trail mix, dark lager, dave chapelle, and family guy @ jr’s (the same pad we had a crackin grad party at on sunday!) to finish off the night.
- turns out there was more at home: filled out late night applications/vchat with the girlfriend

another day of a simple mission trying to get work. failed id’s and continuous back-logging of id renewals from INS isn’t enough to stop my efforts. despite the bartender’s focused attention on another tall lady while i entered the restaurant to turn in my resume, i am still trying, sacrificing as if it’s a part of my first nature. unfair is another term i endure without hesitation; more like an eager understanding for  what i deal with everyday.

fuck ignorant roommate dynamics

lakers FTW

“May I  be of complete and utmos service.

Let my every task be my grace.

In my every labor lies my salvation.

Let my effort not be waste.

Through my works may I save the world.”
Chuck Palahniuk on Survivor